like this post mentioned, i have been having a little trouble with being excited about going to church. it's been frustrating because i know i love church... but i have just wondered why its been hard to go lately.
i said i needed to figure out the answer...
i said i would inform you when i found the answer. i found it yesterday.
my husband and i have not been to the temple since we were married...{which was one of the best/most amazing spiritual experiences of my life}. we finally went back yesterday.
both a little nervous because we were on our own {without having an 'escort' or family that knew what they were doing and had experience being at the temple} we went anyway.
the second we walked in the temple i was overcome with happiness. the temple is an amazing place. it is hard to miss feeling the holy spirit there... i was overcome with emotions and fought back tears multiple times during the temple session we went to.
once we were done we got lunch and went home.
all day i had been having pains in my stomach that started the night before. i figured they would get better but as the pain escalated and shooting pains started in my lower abdomen i was convinced to get a hold of the doctor on call.
before i even explained everything that was going on she quickly advised me that i needed to go to the emergency room as soon as i could.
reluctant, i went. {with my wonderful sister-in-law, as my husband was unable to come with me}.
2 hours later, at about 11:00pm, after being tested in every single way they could... and feeling a little 'medically molested' as my sister-in-law and i named it {i am extremely shy when it comes to going to the doctor} they informed me that i had an ovarian cyst that had ruptured which was causing internal bleeding.
the bleeding was causing severe pain but unfortunately all you can do is take advil for the internal swelling, medicine for the pain and wait it out.
i am in the waiting period right now.
now you must be wondering how any of this relates to me being happy about going to church.
well...when i got home i was lying with my husband in bed and i was in the best mood i have been in in a long time.
i was thinking about the temple.
the temple is such a blessing. it puts into perspective the important aspects of life and brings the spirit so close to your heart.
i could have been wallowing in my sorrows of pain, but rather the spirit was comforting me and i was happy. PLUS i was overcome with an excitement for going to church in the morning.
i know, without a shadow of a doubt that my feelings were caused by my husband and i going to the temple and the blessing that going to the temple brings into your home.
i am so grateful to be able to live so close to a temple. i am grateful to be able to go to the temple.
i am grateful for the temple and the happiness it brings into my life.
it wont be long before i go back again.
Thanks Kristen! I needed that reminder too! I've been needing that extra boost of strength and peace that I only find at the temple.
ReplyDeleteKristen, I came here from ThatWife (I know Jenna un real life), and I thank you for your thoughts on your journey to conversion (I've been a member all my life, but my husband is a convert).
ReplyDeleteI especially appreciate this post. While I have been married for over 4 years, our temple attendance was spotty for a long time. But I recently had an amazing spiritual experience there and finally gained a personal testimony of the importance of attending the temple. With many things in the gospel, I know that if we have the faith to the things we need to, eventually we will receive a personal witness of their importance and truthfulness, and eventually they will become things that we want to do. ^_^
-Gabby
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